Lately, I feel like my life has been governed by a facade that doesn’t reflect how much of a mess I truly am. On the surface, I seem poised, collected, and focused; I have maintained my significant extracurricular load and have kept my grades up. I am just as social as ever. I power through… Continue reading Letter #286 – Journal 4
Author: lettersExternalDevelopment
Letter #295
Dear Shugarrrr, Waiting is hard. Failure is harder. Have you ever waited for something for so long and still failed at it?Yeah, it happened to me, also. Waiting is hard, Waiting and failing, the hardest! I hate the pain of bygones and what could be and this is what waiting and failing has shown… Continue reading Letter #295
Letter #294
Dear stranger, I’m the youngest in my family. The mediator, the one who gets blamed for things and the one who has to step in and keep the peace. I always assumed that that was just my job and it sucked, but it was what it was. I learned to keep my emotions down… Continue reading Letter #294
Letter #297
Hey stranger, I hope you’ve been alright, but if not, that’s okay, too. It’s been a rough couple of days for me, too.Trust never came easy to me. Maybe it was because I grew up knowing about the duality of man. Even the people I should’ve been able to trust, like parents, teachers and… Continue reading Letter #297
Letter #298
Hey stranger. “Insecurity holds you back.” I never understood the reasons for this quote. How can an insecurity hold me back? It’s just something that you hate or see yourself as not being good enough, I always thought, that always pushes you to do better. But, jeez, I was wrong. I’ve always pushed people… Continue reading Letter #298
Letter #306
Content Warnings: Anxiety, self-deprecation, panic, academic stress
Letter #314
Dear Shugarrr, I’m sorry this is coming late but it’s a testament to how I feel — being late. I know people who have made it in life, but it seems I’m too late. Every minor decision leads to something big. It seems that I didn’t make enough of those minor decisions or I made… Continue reading Letter #314
Letter #300
tw: depression, intrusive thoughts
Short Story #13
Content Warning: anxiety, social anxiety, fear of crowds, crowd-claustrophobia
Letter #322
Hi honey, I’ve been exploring EMDR in therapy for the last six months or so. If you are not familiar with EMDR, it pretty much means revisiting difficult memories/experiences in your life and changing the narrative around them. For me, it’s been taking bite-sized chunks of my experiences and starting with negative beliefs I… Continue reading Letter #322
