Content Warnings: Self-deprecation; Anticipatory anxiety, pessimism
Dear friend,
Do you ever feel like your life is going great, but at some point, you might lose everything? Everything that you are, everything that brought you to where you are now. I find it so hard to express gratitude because there’s that tiny voice in my head that tells me that if I make even the smallest mistake, I could lose it all, especially during my lows. I understand that it helps to count my blessings, but from my experience, nothing good lasts forever; at least, that’s what I’ve conditioned myself to believe. Even if good things may eventually fade, I’ll be honest, I would much rather appreciate the positives in my life, no matter how small, rather than constantly pitying myself and wishing I lived a different life. I’ve done it for years, and I’m getting pretty tired of it. I don’t want to paint myself the victim of my seemingly “negative” life anymore. I want a fresh perspective and that starts with seeing the positives.
From,
A friend
