Content Warning: grief, depression
To the one this reaches,
Grief and depression dance and intertwine with one another. It’s a sad pairing, and a pairing that ultimately clashes and becomes one within a human.
How many Seconds? Minutes? Days? Weeks? or Months? How long until one can understand and process the loss of a loved one? How long until one can finally be at peace with it? There’s no written manual as to how one should cope. There aren’t rules to follow or steps to take. It’s an incredibly lonely journey, and most certainly a self-teaching moment.
It begins with a daily morning routine, where I wake up and the thought of the loss has yet to cross my mind. I sip some water and make my bed; I make my way to the bathroom and freshen up. It’s a new morning, but it’s not a morning without coffee. I love coffee, but he did too. I loved leftovers for breakfast, but he did too. I wasn’t a morning person, but he was. Everything begins so quietly, and that’s exactly the problem: it’s too quiet. And in that moment, the thoughts enter my mind again, and it feels like a never-ending torment.
Grief doesn’t necessarily begin with the loss of a person: it can sometimes begin the moment that everything “normal” changes. Life flashes like lightning strikes in the Midwest. When the heavy storms come suddenly and now everything around you is caught up in a whirl. Suddenly, your problems rush around you like a tornado, shattering and crumbling everything you’ve come to know in your life. You grieve the life you knew.
To those who have to move on from a loss, you are not alone. It’s such a lonely and painful feeling, but the magic of grief is that it’s not an emotion you are meant to feel alone. When you are grieving, don’t forget to talk to the one who grieves with and for you. They too, are in need of support and love. That’s also the beauty of grief: it brings people together, and people heal in numbers.
Where there is loss, there is love. And that love will never fade as long as it is kept alive in the hearts of those who choose to honor and display the memories of their loved ones.
Grief is more than just an emotion that one feels—it is a journey and a process. In the beginning, embracing it just seems outrageous and wrong. But as we go on day by day, we realize that it is part of life. To grieve is to accept that a loss we experience is part of the beautiful scars that mold us into who we are. Where it feels like we have lost ourselves can also be our best healer. Embrace the cycle of life, and take care of yourself, friends.
From,
Anonymous
