Content Warning: anxiety, panic, abandonment, relationship stress, overthinking
I’m an anxious person, I’m an over-thinker, and I’m extremely sensitive—overall, not a good combination. I can’t say anything, I can’t say anything, I can’t say anything, and I feel like I’m suffocating. I feel like I’m complaining too much, I am a lot, and that everything I am saying will ruin the mood.
I am scared, I am scared, I am scared, and it’s suffocating. I am scared of ruining everything. I am scared of losing this one thing that has become so precious to me. I am scared of messing it up. I am scared of losing my person because of the way I am, because I’m sensitive, because I’m anxious, because I think a lot, and I can’t stop the thoughts. I can’t lose her, I can’t lose her, I can’t lose her, and I’m swimming in so much fear, I feel like I’m drowning slowly.
I don’t know how to be less sensitive and less affected by everything, I don’t know how to digress and move on, I don’t know how to continue my life and feel less stuck. It’s me, it’s me, it’s me. It’s unchangeable, and it’s me, and it’s here, and it’s not going anywhere, and it’s me, and I can’t fix it. I don’t want to be a child and I don’t want to be this way, and I don’t know how to make my feelings stop—how to slow down my thoughts before panicking. And I’m trying, and I’m trying, and I’m trying, and it’s not enough, and I’m just getting more sensitive, and more affected, and more scared, more scared, more scared, and I can’t afford to lose her.
