Content Warnings: Depression, Bullying, Social Pressures, Loneliness, suicidal ideation
Hello friend,
I hope you are doing well! I want to reach out from a place of understanding, from the depths of experiences that have left scars on my soul. I want to share with you a chapter of my life that was marked by darkness. Trust me, it’s not an easy tale to tell, but perhaps we can find solace and strength behind all of this.
I see people on Instagram and other social media apps talking about how perfect their lives are as if they have never made a mistake in their lives, my world is not so perfect. I have made peace with demons that were my constant companions from childhood years to high school. I have no nicknames for those demons, but they have been weaving themselves into the fabric of my life. Every day felt like a struggle. It makes you feel weak and invisible in the world. School days were filled with taunts and hatred. “You will never be anything in life.” “You are so ugly.” “Nobody wants you here.” “You deserve to die.” It hurts like someone shot you in the heart. Then add some family drama where they treat you like you are not a person. It’s like living in a soap opera but without the glamor.
As a freshman in high school, I struggled with my mental health and suffered from depression, which made me feel like I did not belong in this world. I did not care about school or the future until I realized that I was not alone. There was a higher power watching over me, guiding me through the storm. Even though God was watching me, I was told to find my guiding star. A few years later, I graduated high school and am now attending college. I have found my guiding star. I am writing this letter to let you know that you are enough. You are not alone. You are not weak. God is watching over you, no matter what you are struggling with. Ask yourself. What is your guiding star?
