Content Warning: Breakup, Emotional Abuse, Relationship Stress
Dear Friend,
I am a 22-year-old college student with a baby. Although it is not a rare occurrence, in my bubble, it is. Not many of my peers understand the weight of being a mother or that sometimes I need support. I live on my own far from campus, and, often, my only human interactions are in class and when my son goes to daycare.
Aside from this, I have been trying to uplift myself ever since the breakup with the father of my son. There are many things I am proud of that I do alone, but sometimes it weighs down on me that the person who promised to be there and support me through school and having a baby is not here. Every negative thing he has ever told me replays in my head often. I sometimes wonder how a person can say so many mean things. It makes me realize that this person probably never really appreciated me for the person I was. I am even more disappointed in myself for centering my life around him for 7 years. It has been 9 months since we separated, but every day, I still wish I didn’t feel any pain. My biggest wish is simply to move on.
There are many things I try to enjoy about my circumstances. This is my last year of college, and I will never do this again. I have been going to the gym and love having my routine with my little boy. I want to say I am very proud of how much improvement I have made these past few months.
